The Things I Wear HNT

I have quite the collection of jewerly. A lot of things I have made including this piece. A lot of it I got from my grandma. Most of it I have picked up at random stores, shops, and from gifts. I thought I would do a series with the various things I like most. Figured it would give me quite a few HNT's to fill space. Hope you enjoy the series. Happy HNT!

Whatcha' think?

I've had the new do now for almost a week (tomorrow). Here's a couple views from the front. I've figured out a few ways to fix it over the last week and I'll try to remember to take pictures of them when I do them. Last Friday I flew out the back for some volume and gooped up the sides with "hair paste" to tuck behind my ears. I really liked that one. Saturday I picked up a new narrow flat iron to try to make it all "shaggy" too. I'm having fun with. The best part...even when I blew it all out it only took just under 10 minutes. I love it!

Non-Fiction Five Challenge

It must be the spring and the sense of potential. Because I have expanded my own "to read" pile I have been exploring other's "to read" piles. When doing so, I found the Non-Fiction Five Challenge and have decided to participate. Go to the link to find the rules and how to enter.

Here's my five non-fiction choices to read between May 1 and September 30. I'm looking forward to expanding my horizons a bit.

1. Measure of a Man by Sidney Portier
2. Children's Blizzard by David Laskin
3. Interior Castle by St. Teresa of Avila
4. Midnight in the Garden of Good and Evil by John Berendt
5. Infidel by Ayaan Hirsi Ali

Here's why I these are challenges for me.

Measure of a Man is a spiritual autobiography written by Sidney Portier. Mr Portier is "before my time" but I recognize the name. I don't know him as a man. I don't read biographies either.

Children's Blizzard is a historical piece about a devastating winter storm which killed hundreds of people in South Dakota, where I grew up. While I grew up in South Dakota, when I left, I really left. It's where I'm "from". When I refer to "home" I'm often talking about Montana b/c that very much felt like home. So I'm adding this to my list to learn more about what came before me in South Dakota.

Interior Castle is questionable in the terms of "non-fiction". In my mind, it is non-fiction. St Teresa of Avila was a mystic I studied when I was in college. I was exposed to excerpts only of her work in a very short 6 week summer course on women mystics in general. Mystics reach a darkness and utter dispare during their lives. Lately, I've been somewhat down. On the flip, mystics then become enlightened. I'm going to look for some enlightment through the words of St Teresa of Avila.

Midnight in the Garden of Good and Evil is a challenge for me because I normally like to read fictional crime because I don't like to imagine that some of the crime and murder stories I read our real. But this story is real. What a challenge to try to understand the mind of a killer.

Infidel struck me as I was roaming through the store because of the beautiful woman on the cover. But as I read the dust cover I found out the author is a Somali woman. Somewhat oddly, southeast Minnesota has a significant Somali immigrant population. I don't know a lot about their culture but I do know the reasons I end up meeting these people as patients is because of the horrible political unrest and violence in their country that has led to horrible, life changing injuries. I want to see this through the eyes of a woman willing to challenge the "system".

So there's my list. I have four of them already, I'll pick up the last when it's been out a while longer.

Whoa...what just happened

I read a lot. I read a wide variety of books. Some books are just okay. Some books I don't finish. Some books I have to start over before I can get into them. This book, I have to tell you about!

I just finished Double Bind by Chris Bohjalian. I was blown away. You know that feeling you got at the end of watching "The Sixth Sense" for the first time. This book gives you THAT feeling. I was enjoying to book, particularly pages 250-300 or so as all the pieces were coming together and I'm 'getting' it. I didn't 'get it'. I finished turning the last 10 pages or so and was like, "whoa...what just happened? For real? Wow?"

I love it when a book does that. I haven't read a book that did that for a long time. You need to read this book. It's about a young woman who is attacked while bike riding and turns to her photography after the attack. She works in a homeless shelter and gets left with a box of photos by a resident who dies at the beginning of the book. She wants to track down the story behind the photos. I won't tell you any more. You need to read it.

Wow! Now a new adventure when I get to start a new story this afternoon. Yippee...and the weather's a bit gray so what better reason to curl up with a book. Have a great weekend everyone.

HNT...revealed

It was about time...I don't really have "habits". I need change, keep things moving, keep myself on my toes. I've been itching for a change. I got it! Happy HNT!!!!

SURPRISE

Stay tuned for a big surprise...

Monday, Monday

I have added even MORE books to my "to read" list! I can't read them fast enough lately. I slumped for a while last month but I'm devouring pages again. So I'm leaving you with a quick meme stole from My Utopia and I'm going to keep reading! Hope you all had a wonderful Easter.

1.Whats your name spelt backwards? ellociN

2. What did you do last night? Drove home from Duluth and moved into a friend's house to dog sit for the week

3. The last thing you downloaded onto your computer? The newest iTunes.

4. Have you ever licked a 9 volt battery? ew...no

5. Last time you swam in a pool? at Wisconsin Dells in January

6. What are you wearing? Purple windpants, a Carroll College sweatshirt and my slippers

7. How many cars have you owned? Patch, my Saturn currently. Mom and dad owned the rest.

8. Type of music you dislike most? Vulgar worded anything. Otherwise I'll listen to most about everything.

9. Are you registered to vote? Yes and I have never voted a straight ticket.

10. Do you have cable? Digital cable with a few extra packages added.

11. What kind of computer do you use? Dell laptop

12. Ever made a prank phone call? Yes

13. You like anyone right now? More than they know.

14. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving? I skydived on my honeymoon. I will NEVER bungee jump.

15. Furthest place you ever travelled? England, Scotland, and Wales

16.Do you have a garden? No, I don't have time.

17. What's your favorite comic strip? I like Cathy and For Better or Worse

18. Do you know all the words to the national anthem? Yes

19. Shower, morning or night? Morning

20. Best movie you've seen in the past month? Wild Hogs

21. Favorite pizza toppings? BBQ Chicken

22. Chips or popcorn? Kettle boiled chips or buttery movie popcorn

23. What cell phone provider do you have? Sprint

24. Have you ever smoked peanut shells? Why and how do you do that?

25. Have you ever been in a beauty pageant? Yes

26. Orange Juice or apple? Orange

27. Who were the last people you sat at lunch with? My aunt and her friend Marilyn yesterday

28. Favorite chocolate bar? Mars Bar with Almonds which you can rarely find anymore

29. Who is your longest friend and how long? Jami...16 years or so

30. Last time you ate a homegrown tomato? Probably last summer sometime

31. Have you ever won a trophy? Yes and I have no clue where any of them are.

32. Favorite artist? Any nature photograher

33. Favorite computer game? Wii Sports Bowling and Wii Play Cow Racing :)

34. Ever ordered from an infomercial? Nope

35. Sprite or 7-UP? Either but really prefer Ginger Ale

36. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school/work? Yes

37. Last thing you bought at the store? A new stack of books to read

38. Ever thrown up in public? Yes, unfortunately more than once.

39. Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love? True love, I can't stand money

40. Do you believe in love at first sight? No

41.Can exes just be friends? I'm doubtful

42. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital? Do my patients count?

43. Did you have long hair as a young kid? Very. Cut it off in second grade because it would pull my head back when it was wet and give me a headache.

44. What message is on your voicemail machine? Not really sure, something about leaving me a message though

45. Where would you like to go right now? Home with Heather, pizza sticks and Beaches

Bookworm Meme

I stole this from My Utopia and then Lime so I figured I better get it posted before EVERYONE has it on their site. I'm a book nut...Nerd I Am :)

Hardback or trade paperback or mass market paperback? Whatever intrigues me on any particular day

Amazon or brick and mortar? Mostly brick and mortar...especially quirky little local privately owned little bookstores

Barnes & Noble or Borders? We don't really have Borders around where I live so B & N it is.

Bookmark or dogear? I use the dust cover if it's a hard cover book. I dog ear paperbacks. I think a book that looks used is a good book.

Alphabetize by author or alphabetize by title or random? I group authors together but that is as organized as my shelves get.

Keep, throw away, or sell? mostly keep. Right now I've been into giving away. Should really try to sell.

Keep dustjacket or toss it? Keep them

Read with dustjacket or remove it? It becomes my bookmark.

Short story or novel? Novels...short stories don't give me 'enough'

Collection (short stories by same author) or anthology (short stories by different authors)? Would prefer different authors, similar topics.

Harry Potter or Lemony Snicket? Harry Potter...I have the last one on pre-order already.

Stop reading when tired or at chapter breaks? Whenever I can't keep my eyes open or remember the previous page...whichever comes first.

“It was a dark and stormy night” or “Once upon a time”? I need "dark and stormy", I don't believe in once upon a time anymore.

Buy or Borrow? I'm more likely to buy.

New or used? I use to NEVER buy used books...now, I realize how much money I spend on books. Used is perfectly fine unless I just can't wait.

Buying choice: book reviews, recommendation or browse? A little bit of everything. Mostly a browser.

Tidy ending or cliffhanger? I like an ending...I don't do well with books that just end. For example...Kite Runner was a wonderful story and then it just came to and end. I feel cheated when a book does that.

Morning reading, afternoon reading or nighttime reading? Mostly at night but afternoons on the weekends are always a treat.

Stand-alone or series? More of a stand alone but I do have several authors who have created repeating characters whom I have fallen in love with.

Favorite series? Several...My first series faves came with the Nancy Drew books and The Babysitter Club when I was a pre-teen. Then came Patricia Cornwell's Scarpetta novels, more recently Kathy Reichs Bones series, and I just ordered The Dead Triology by McKinty!

Favorite children's book ? Velveteen Rabbit

Favorite book of which nobody else has heard? The Alieniest by Caleb Carr

Favorite books read last year? Eat, Pray and Love by Elizabeth Gilbert

Favorite books of all time? i just can't, I've read so many

Least favorite book you finished last year? Anything I HAD to read for work :)

What are you reading right now? Double Bind and Dahli Lama My Son

What are you reading next? I have a whole list, depends on what I feel like when I finish what I'm reading now.

new books!

Nothing makes me smile like a stack of brand new books to read (even the kitties enjoy the benefits)...I needed a pick me up and so I asked the boyfriend to join me at Barnes and Noble for the afternoon. Figure we needed some time together but was too scared to go home and just "talk" yet. We did eventually go home, read our books together, ate dinner and talked about what we needed to talk. I feel a bit better.

Now I'm at home and I have two bags of new books to read :) I started Double Bind by Chris Bohjalian. I'm 75 pages into it already and I'm hooked. Here's what else I got:

Nanny Diaries by Emma McLaughlin, Nicola Kraus on CD for this weekend's road trip
The Memories We Keep by Walter Zacharius
The Patron Saint of Lairs by Ann Patchett
Midnight in the Garden of Good and Evil by John Berendt
Interior Castle by Teresa of Avila, Translated by E. Allison Peers
Flesh and Bone by Jefferson Bass

There is something about the potential a stack of brand new books brings with it. The anticipation of a new story through another's eyes. The chance to put yourself into situations you might never experience for real. A chance to see how others live. An opportunity to escape into the pages. A new book has a smell too. When you mention the smell of a "new car" to someone, almost everyone can conjour up the aroma. The same is true for a "new" book as opposed to an "old" book.

So things are still on mostly level ground in my life with a few pebbles in the path. Until the pebbles are cleared, I'll watch my step. In the meantime, I'm going to read.

any one understand?

so much for things looking up. i'm lost, confused, and don't know where to turn or what to do next. like I said earlier, I know what I want but someone else doesn't. uncertainity hurts so bad when it hits you up side the head after you thought you knew what was going on. how come I have to care so much? how come I have to love so much? how come I want to make it work? lot's of how comes and now a single answer it seems. just tears, stress, and no one really close by that really understands. how come?

No picture...just a meme

Dirty Little Secrets -- Answer Truthfully. I edited it some.

1. The phone rings; who do you want it to be? The boyfriend, I'm tired and just want to hear his voice.

2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart? Yes, drives me nuts when they are scattered.

3. In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener? Talker

4. Do you take compliments well? Not usually...forget to just say thank you and instead fumble all over my words

5. Do you play Sudoku? Only if it's readily available, I won't search out books and such

6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness, would you survive? Yeah, I'd bitch for a bit but I have the know how to make it for a few weeks.

7. Do you like to ride horses? Yeah but don't have the time or the money for that hobby anymore

8. Did you ever go to camp as a kid? Never. First trip was as a junior in college to Yellowstone. I fell in love with it.

9. What was your favorite game as a kid? Gin Rummy with my grandparents

10. If a person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was married, would you go for it? Definitely absolutely NEVER! Been on the burned end of that and still recovering.

11. Have you lied to get out of a date? Yes

12. Could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you? yes, I find different religions interesting

13. Do you like to pursue or be pursued? A bit of both

14. Use three words to describe yourself? committed, over-achiever, faithful

15. Do any songs make you cry? I don't have enough time to list them all

16. Are you continuing your education? Eventually...going to take a death investigations course sometime in the next few years

17. Do you know how to shoot a gun? Not really.

18. If your house was on fire, what would be the first thing you grabbed? Not counting my husband…my purse so I wouldn’t have to get all my identification replaced.

19. How often do you read books? Every single day

20. Do you think more about the past, present or future?The present into the future right now, hence I'm not sleeping well!

21. What is your favorite children's book? Velveteen Rabbit when I was little, Nancy Drew and The Hardy Boys as a pre-teen

22. What color are your eyes? Green

23. How tall are you? 5 feet 8 inches

24. Where is your dream house located? The top of a long driveway in the middle of the woods on top of a mountain in Montana

25. Have you tried sushi? Yes and I don't really like it

26. Have you ever taken pictures in a photo booth? Yes

27. When was the last time you were at Olive Garden? Last Friday night

28. When was the last time you were at Church? Saturday

29. Where was the furthest place you traveled today?
My accountant's office...maybe 4 miles

30. What was your favorite job? Barista at a privately owned local coffee shop in Helena, MT

31. Do you look like your mom or dad? A bit of both and I notice more of each as I get older.

32. How long does it take you in the shower? 8 minutes (I know because I have it down to a science in the morning)

33. Can you do the splits? Nope

34. If you could fast forward your life, would you? Scared to right now

35. What did you do for New Year's? Had to bail on the romantic weekend so I invited a house full of friends over for chicken lasagna and a lot of wine and champagne.

36. Do you think The Grudge was scary? Not so much scary and just annoying loud and unreal. Hated it.

37. Could you relate to a character in Mean Girls? Never watched it.

38. Do you own a camera phone? Yes, can't seem to buy one without these days.

39. What do you buy at the movies? Popcorn with extra butter, root beer, twizzlers

40. Do you wear your seatbelt? Always

41. What do you wear to sleep? Any sort of pj pant and tank tops

42. Anything big ever happen in your hometown? Nope...300 people don't cause much big

43. Ever been to L.A.? My entire senior class went for 5 days for senior class trip.

44. Do you steal or pay for your music downloads? I pay now, use to download from wherever

45. Are you a gullible person? Nope, I have trust issues so I doubt pretty much everything until I can confirm all details

46. If you could have any job what would it be? Medical examiner

47. Are you easy to get along with? Most days...I have my moments

48. What is your favorite time of day? 11 pm or so...when I can curl up with a good book in the dark and quiet with just a little lamp and my kitties purring on my lap

Spring sprung

Spring sprung this weekend! YEAH!!!!

The last month has been wet, gray, and yucky. Not to mention the emotional turmoil of the past month for me. It's been hard. I'm doing my best to stay positive and the best remedy has been keeping myself very busy. My house is also very clean now. The weather over the last two days has allowed me to open my windows and air things out. I also worked outside in the garage and have this serious itch to clean it all out.

The last month has definitely had more downs then ups. It's amazing what a little sunshine and fresh air can do for one's psyche though. Clears out the cobwebs, dries a few tears (or sometimes a lot), gives things a new shine and outlook. I still don't know what the near future holds for me, I know in my heart what I want and I'll hold on to that because it feels safe. The rest, I can't control and for me that is the hardest part of it all. All I can do is be true to myself and keep both my heart and my soul busy...if spring cleaning is what I need to do it, I guess that's what I'll do.

Have a great week!w

Who'd you invite?

I don't talk religion on my site much but occasionally I throw it in. This weekend at our Women's Lenten Retreat the presenter led us through a cool visual reflection. When we were all done we met in small groups to talk about what we had visualized. The topic for the day was The Basin and The Towel in it's relationship to our call to serve and to be served as Jesus did at the Last Supper.

Our task was to arrange our own Last Supper. Jesus would be there in our own homes and we had to plan the meal and guest list. Would we use special dishes? Any particular table setting? Who would you invite? Etc...it was very intriguing.

I instantly decided on my Chicken Alfredo Lasagna. It's easy and tasts amazing. Goes great with a Caeser salad. A couple bottles of white wine. Something with raspberries for dessert. All easy enough. Then I started my guest list. Then I started wondering where I would sit every one. Then I started worrying if I forgot someone. Did I have all the ingredients? It's got to be just right...

Then, an "aha" moment! Forget the guest list, keep the menu, just invite Jesus. If you are familiar with the Bible stories of Mary and Martha you know Martha was a fussy sort. Everything had to be perfect, it was always her busy prepping and serving which made an event successful while her sister Mary would sit at the feet of Jesus and talk. Once Jesus scolded Martha for her flightiness and instructed her to sit and enjoy. So, I'm a "martha". I have to have it all planned out, I have to make sure every guest is happy.

So...for my Last Supper in my own home I would invite Jesus, we would eat in the living room on my usual periwinkle Fiestaware with several bottles of average white wine and afterwards curl up in blankets and watch a movie together. Boring but at least I know I was giving Jesus my attention and he vice versa.

Now, the challenge...Who would you invite? What would you make? Why that way? Just something to ponder.

Post-Patty's Day Prattle

The weekend is finally nearly over and I'm looking to get a few hours of it back! It was a great weekend and I wouldn't mind extending just a few hours of it. Maybe a few Irish prayers and the sun upon my back finally helped me out...

Yesterday morning started with our Lenten Retreat at church. We had a guest speaker so all i had to do was get the morning organized and physically set things up. The best part of the morning was a reflection she had us do on the Last Supper. She had us think about who we would invite to join us in our own home along with Jesus if we were to hose a dinner with him. Who to invite, who would sit where, what would you serve, etc? It was a neat experience.

Last night we joined a group of my friends and acquaintances from work for a surprise 50th birthday party. We had great food, good music, good friends. I even discovered a new drink. Ever try Yukon Jack and Mountain Dew in a Yu-Dew? Very yummy! We went out to a little Irish pub after dinner. It was a crowded smokey mix of drunkness and only an okay band. Their song selection was a bit questionable and their quality was just okay. We stayed until about 10:30 and headed home to watch a movie. This morning we took advantage of sleeping in, made breakfast, and hung out. It was very very nice.

i have smokey clothes to wash now and need to find something for supper but I'm happy for the first time in a few weekends. It was nice for a change. The luck of the Irish was with me and for that I'm grateful. Top o' the week to ya all!

Irish I am...

This is why i carry my own irish shot glass around my neck :)

You're 70% Irish

You're very Irish, and most likely from Ireland. (And if you're not, you should be!)

How Irish Are You?

I'm ready, are you...HNT

Last year I had fun with HNT on St Patty's Day so I thought I better keep the tradition up. I have my mug and am ready for my green beer! Happy HNT from your Irish lass.

Counting flowers on the wall...

I'm suppose to say that doesn't "bother me at all". I'm not convinced.

I said mutliple repeated rosaries last night, I read 10-20 pages of The Devil in The White City. I petted my snoring cats, I rolled onto my left, my back, and my right side. There are no flowers on my wall but there are 8 pictures of Montana landscapes of my own taking on the walls. I saw the clock turn about every 20-40 minutes and counted down until the alarm went off at a quarter to 6.

When i was asleep my dreams were of the past and of pain. Or just plain flat out didn't make logical sense. Finally got up on the second attempt at the snooze button this morning. Showered and got myself all pretty for a full clinic day.

It's now Tuesday night and I've worked 19 hours this week already and last night slept only about 3 total. I got home today around 4 ish and crashed hardcore for a two hour nap. Oops, I didn't make it to the gym. I slept so hard and was curled tight under the blankets. The cats were curled on top of that. I could have slept till tomorrow. But the dreams were scattered and unrealistic messes of jumbled thoughts.

I've had a meeting, I had dinner, now I'm watching a ballistics show and wrapped in a blanket on the couch. Maybe I'll sleep tonight, otherwise I need to paint some flowers on the walls.

look what i made..

It was my attempt at romantic and a perk for myself to have fresh flowers in the house. I don't think it turned out half bad!

My Visual DNA

Found this on Leesa's site and found it intriguing. I have better things I should be doing but instead I have my feet up and am watching In Her Shoes while laundry is going I'm not being completely nonproductive!

Read my VisualDNA™ Get your own VisualDNA™

Comic relief

Yes, I'm almost 30.

Yes, it's 4 in the afternoon and I'm NOT at work.

Yes, I've accomplished a few things this afternoon.

No, I haven't taken a nap.

Yes, I need a smile.

So...YES, I'm sitting with a blanket in my jammies watching Curious George, the movie!

Yes, I'll make it to my 6 pm volleyball game in time.

they are holding...

The bandages seem to be holding. They are getting a little stretched but so far so good. I wish I could go into a lot of detail but's too hard and too personal. The long story short is that I've hit some bumps in a long term relationship and the future is up in the air. It's scary, I think we can get past it, it's just hard.

Hopefully the bandages hold...it hurts like hell and I don't know what else to do.

So much for fun times...

i've moved out to the farm. so far so good but it's been nuts. The surgical rep covering for the house owners at his "real" job isn't helping. I have had to make two emergency runs to the hospital (yesterday at 6:15 in the morning and this morning at 8:30 when the hospital called woke me up) because the rep hasn't come in or had the right instruments. Yesterday morning since I was up so darn early I figured I might as well get chores done. That was fun actually.

I got the first two horses let to their pasture without a problem. The "girls" were another story. They wanted OUT and I wasn't moving fast enough. So Cindy and Joys both got to run and frolic around the yard independently for a while before I was able to get their leads on and back into the pasture. Silly girls. I went rounds with a nasty rooster and am proud to say I won :) I got him out of the barn and back into the yard. I went a second round tonight with him and the other gal that is normally doing chores and we beat him again :) Silly rooster!

The electricity went out in the barn too. When I got home from the hospital this morning the gal doing chores had left me a note asking if the lights were working elsewhere. The house stuff was fine. I called the owner and he walked me through all the buildings and they were fine too. He directed me on the phone to two outdoor switchboxes and those were fine. He called a neighbor and he came over. There was one box the owner didn't tell me to look at because he thought it would be fine. Well, with the cold weather and everything plugged in the breaker had switched and that was the problem. We got that fixed too.

Now if everything else was going okay. I'm in tears now, have been most of the weekend and don't know what my future is going to hold for me. The love of my life "isn't sure". Lots to talk about I guess. He wants to talk though so that's good right? I'm scared. I don't want to mess up another relationship that I thought was forever. We are more than friends by a long ways but are we marriage material? If we are close should we work on it? What if we aren't close? I'm just trying to hold myself together and hopefully the rest will fall into place. Great, uh?

Fun times ahead...

We are expected to get an additional 8-10 inches of snow in the next 24 hours. That's in addition to the 20 inches we got this past weekend and the three and a half we already got today. In between the boughts of snow fall today we have had sleet and rain. To say it's "interesting" out would be an understatement. I mentioned the result of the first storm was increased work for us. Today it resulted in a decrease in business. Monday was a call day. Today was a clinic day. We had quite a few brave souls who came in spite of the weather but many rescheduled. I have no problem with those who reschedule. I have a problem with those who do not call and simpley don't show up.

In between clinic patient's today I got to spend $400 on a new ignition/lock system for my car. Something wrong with the tumbler and electric communication between it and the shifter and brake. Yesterday it resulted in me being stuck in the parking ramp with a key stuck in the ignition and the inability to remove the key or turn the car on. I drove my way slowly home, parked in my garage and once again canceled all my plans for the night

I'm feeling a bit lonely now. My boyfriend has a severely busy week at work and I haven't gotten to see him very much. Sunday night he pulled an all-nighter working on his projects. Monday I was at work late so we canceled our plans to finish installing my new dishwasher. Tuesday night he was still working on deadline related projects. Last night was a great night of volleyball in spite of the weather. Our games were still on and we ended up winning all three after staying within a point or two of each other for all three games. Afterwards my boyfriend and I were able to have dinner together and then he came over to finish installing my new dishwasher. Unfortunately, the weather has interferred with my plans to go to his house tonight and hang out.

Fun times are ahead starting tomorrow so who knows how much we will get to see each other. I begin a house sitting job on a farm just outside of town. There are four horses, two pygmie goats, some chickens and an Australian shepard who lives in doors. Another individual is going to help with the chores but I will be staying at the house because Yoda, the dog, is mostly a house dog. I'm worried about the snow, loss of power, and horses in this blizzard. Could get interesting I was excited about housesitting until this blizzard rolled in, now I'm feeling very anxious. I don't like feeling anxious.

To top it all off, not having a lot of time to spend with my boyfriend over the last couple weeks is bugging me. I'm trying not to be the anxious, worried girl I am but lately it's been creeping in. I know he's busy. There is a lot going on at work this time of year for him. He is willing to make time for me. I just get lonely. I get use to seeing him nearly every day. I find comfort in knowing I can talk about my day with him, plan my weekend with him, just have him around. I don't share well and now I'm sharing him with work. It's awful to be jealous of an employer isn't it? Maybe once the final snow count is in we can hit the slopes on Sunday. I didn't get to go skiing last week with the rest of the gang because of my own work schedule. I felt left out then too.

Time for a glass of wine. I need a hug too...

Monday Mayhem

Today was the first day the world around me had to go back to work and routine after a weekend of storms leaving behind ice and feet of snow.

Today was the first day this week at work my team was on call.

Today was mayhem. Today was a "good" day at work.

In trauma surgery a "good" day is a busy day. Those of us who work in trauma don't like idle times. We get a little antsy. Today, we had no time to be antsy or bored

Unfortunately, a busy day for us usually means inconvenience, pain, and confusion for others. This is a typical "winter" flow of patients for us...snow mobile accidents, ice related falls, car accidents. We saw it all today. This is what we have been waiting for all winter. Hopefully all will go well the rest of this week.

Maybe today is the start of my funk going away.

saturday night funk

Thunder snow? Hail in February? 6 inches of now before the rain? February??? They said it was coming. I was annoyed by it all. To hell with canceling events before the storm even gets here. Make plans, if you have to change them change them. It's February in Minnesota, what do you expect. Get over it, we were spoiled with 40-50 degree temps in December and January.

Well, it came. "They" were right. Last night driving to the bar at 10:30 in blinding snow and watching thunder and lightening in the sky was just too strange. There was July-like thunder clouds with severe lightening and it was snowing. This morning at 5 am I was awakened to ice pelting against the window two feet from my head. It wasn't ice falling, but it turned to ice as soon as it hit the window. Don't know which kept me awake more...the rain pounding or my supposed yelling in my sleep (boyfriend says I was yelling in my sleep...considering what I do remember of my dreams, the few I did have, I believe him). It was a long night.

I chopped through the 1/2 to 1 inch thick layer of ice on top of the 6 inches of snow to shovel the sidewalk this morning. That was weird. The roads were surprisingly driveable. Slushy but reasonably okay. Wish the rest of the day had been reasonably okay. I would have taken reasonably okay.

Instead, this is how I'm spending my Saturday night in an attempt to cope...

I have snowflake covered flannel pajama pants on with socks, I just inhaled a bag of microwave popcorn and I'm on my third or fourth glass of Merlot. We started installing the new dishwasher this afternoon and it's not done and I have shed a gazillion tears. What is my "Problem"?

All I wanted at Menard's was a 90 degree elbow with a 3/8th inch threaded end. Well, the idiot plumbing counter salesperson was clueless. Not only clueless, he didn't listen to what I needed. I left with three separate pieces of copper coupling to "make-do" with becaues he didn't have what I needed and implied no such thing existed. This took an absorbant amount of time. I eventually made it out with these three pieces, a piece of connecting hose, plumber's tape, and salt for my water softner. I got in line at Culver's to get our lunch. Did I mention this was taking a crazy amount of time? If not, it was to the point of the boy calling me to make sure everything was okay. By the way, I thought that was cute considering the shitty weather and all.

Well, I pounded my way into the house (a layer of ice made it impossible to ring the doorbell and my hands were too full to open the knob). The first words out of the boy's mouth as I was trying to explain were "these aren't going to work". It sent me into tears. Tears! Flaming, burning tears. He got mad, put his coat on and started to leave. Like that helped the tears! I just wanted to frickin' finish the dishwasher installation, I was pissed as hell at the salesperson for not knowing his shit, and now I was trying to explain myself to my boyfriend for bringing home the parts I brought home. What I really wanted to do...curl up in the fetal position with my cats and cry like there was no tomorrow.

Why the hell do I feel like that?

We managed to eat lunch. He picked up the "right" piece that "doesn't exist" at Home Depot and we will finish the installation tomorrow. I got a nap and had jacked up dark dreams. I have completed several cards and one photo book cover. I have my flannel sheets in the dryer. I have devoured my bag of popcorn, I'm still working on the bottle of wine, and I'm watching The Devil Wears Prada alone on a Saturday night thanks to the damn storm that made it not the wisest decision to go out for pizza and a movie with a group of friends, even though I really wanted to and now instead we all played it safe and stayed home, the boyfriend is at home slaving over work on the weekend because he has presentations and deadlines all before Wednesday and all I want to do is cry myself to sleep on his shoulder for no identifiable reason and instead am downing a nice bottle of Merlot in Eddie Bauer flannel with the Devil Wears Prada and Orville Redenbacher all alone on a Saturday night.

What the heck is my funk about?



Maybe the brunch with a friend and her daughter tomorrow morning will help all this. Maybe a long night's sleep in freshly cleaned flannel sheets with a good book will make me feel better. But I want to know where the hell is it coming from?

Stolen Meme

The rules are simple. Answer each question in three words. No more, no less.

1. Where is your cell phone? Next to me
2. Boyfriend/girlfriend?a handsome boyfriend
3. Hair? curly red mess
4. Your mother? strong-willed woman
5. Your father? school bus driver
6. Your favorite item(s)? flannel sheets, PJ's
7. Your dream last night? frustrating, screaming, awake
8. Your favorite drink? room temp water
9. Your dream guy/girl? have no clue
10. The room you are in? warm, bright, safe
11. Your fear? Being old alone
12. What do you want to be in 10 years? Satified, comfortable, safe
13. Who did you hang out with last night? pals from work
14. What are you not? A great singer
15. Are you in love? Very much so
16. One of your wish list items? Montana mountain home
17. What time is it? serious nap time
18. The last thing you did? fetched my mail
19. What are you wearing? jeans and turtleneck
20. Your favorite book? Alienist by Carr
21. The last thing you ate? Culver's Bacon Burger
22. Your life? seize the day
23. Your mood? pretty darn grumpy
24. Your friends? eccletic, fun, true
25. What are you thinking about right now? Bad day, anyone?
26. Your car? Coated in ice
27. What are you doing at this moment? thinking of napping
28. Your summer? Should be busy
29. Your relationship status? He's at home
30. What is on your TV screen? Law & Order
31. When is the last time you laughed? one hour ago
32. Last time you cried? 90 minutes ago
33. School? too much time

It's all relative...

Isn't it funny how our life sitatuion, physical location, mind set can make what seems to be very different things similar. Or cause you to react the same to different stimuli?

Last week I was hanging out in San Diego and the highs got up to the low 80's. I was singing the praises of the sun and fresh air and was excited about not having to wear a coat. Last night after volleyball I was in shorts and my Columbia winter coat amazed at how warm 34 degrees felt! Some of the warmth from Southern Cali must have come home with me. We had one day of 40 plus degree temps this week. The snow is melting and it's a slushy mess but it feels wonderful out. I briefly opened the windows in southern Minnesota in February because it was 36 degrees out and it felt so good to get a breeze through the house. Guess it's all relative to what you expect!

it arrived...

it made it today, everything was in one piece, now i have to unpack

Bag anyone?

I made it home from beautiful San Diego about 40 minutes late and then the only checked bag which arrived was my bag full of dirty laundry. All the essentials are stuck in Chicago. How do I know they are in Chicago? The guy from London, the guy from Miami and myself all flew through Chicago. Also...as we waited 20 minutes in the plane at the jet way in Chicago the pilot let us know we were waiting for bags to be loaded because of short ground staff. This was the first flying trip in which I have had to rebook a flight because of completing canceled flights and go to a different airline AND then they also lose my luggage. They say it will be delivered in the morning. Wish me luck...

Sunny San Diego

I'm hanging out in sunny San Diego through Sunday for the American Academy of Orthopedic Surgeons annual meeting. What a perfect location considering it's still freezing in Minnesota. This is a great city! And I have seafood to eat every single day...so I'm off to begin my day!

Senseless

I've been super busy this weekend but something is weighing on my chest and I need to get it off before I go to bed and start the new week. On top of getting a new dishwasher, demo'ing at a very successful Stampin' Up at-home workshop, covering the hockey game, dinner with the boy, a migraine, church and open volleyball, I got news of a very bad accident in my hometown on Friday night/Saturday morning.

When I say I grew up in a small town, I mean really small. The population when I graduated high school was around 300. I graduated with 11 people. The class behind me had 18 or so. My sister's class four years later had 8. You get the picture.

Friday night two classmates from the class behind me were killed in a car accident. A third member of that class is in critical condition. One of those killed married a classmate of mine right out of high school so they have been married for 9 years and have three kids under the age of 5. The other one killed is married to a gal from the class behind their's and they have two kids under the age of 5.

I cried on Saturday morning when my sister called me. Two hours later I was angry and I'm still angry. The cause of the accident was a group of adults acting like teenagers. Even my widowed classmate has said that already in her grief. They were racing another group of friends in another car and had been drinking. One of the vehicles lost control coming into town around the big curve right next to the now widowed classmate's mom and dad's house. Could it all get any worse.

Isabel is a dying town to start with. Since I graduated in 1996 the population has continued to drop and is now around 250. These young people chose to stay in Isabel. They are part of the community. Now the community is getting ready to bury two of it's own. I cried tonight at Mass for my classmate. I was always jealous of her marrying her high school sweetheart and having three beautiful kids. Now I can't imagine the grief and sadness.

Please pray for my hometown, they could use it right now.

Pearl Ex HNT

Dad's birthday was Monday and I spent three days trying to call him before I was finally able to reach him today and sing a very bad rendition of Happy Birthday to him. Thankfully, I'm more crafty than I am vocally capable :) I made a lot of cards today and tried my hand at a technique I haven't used. Pearl Ex is a heat free embossing powder from Stampin' Up that gave the candles on my Dad's birthday cake a little glimmer. I took a few shots of all the cards I made and now I'm off to bed. Happy HNT!

Feeling homey...

The last week I have felt homey; almost nesting like. I know for sure I'm not pregnant so no cause and effect there. I think it's the cold weather. Fall and winter are my favorite time of the year and we have had a very delayed winter this season. In December we had 50 and 60 degree days. We have now had a snowfall which hasn't melted and has actually acccumulated along with subzero temperatures for the last 10 days.

In the last 10 days I have felt very comfortable in my home. I have owned my house for just over a year but it really feels like mine now. A stranger could walk through the house now and learn many things about me. It's a "home" instead of a "house". I have had the desire to spend hours in my softest flannel pajamas, thick warm socks, and my hair in a pony tail curled up in between my flannel sheets with my heating pad and a good book. The other night I even took a cup of hot chocolate to bed with me. When not curled up reading, I have been on the couch working on the computer or watching TV with a warm blanket and a hot cup of tea.

I have also made a point to pick up after myself a bit more. The coffee table is free of the last week's worth of mail, last night I cleared the top of my desk, and each day after stamping in my personally painted and decorated craft room, I have picked my things up so when I have returned the next time the area was clean and ready to begin the next project.

I have wanted to wear my form fitting flowing dress pants with my sharp pair of boots and thick, soft, warm sweaters. I have foregone make-up more than a few days in the last few weeks. I'm enjoying using the various rooms in my house. I have felt very safe in my home.

I'm not sure where the feeling is coming from but a homey, comfy feeling has led to more productivity as well. I've read four books this year already. Finished several magazines which are a few months old. I have also gotten many stampin' projects done and two workshops under my belt in the last week. I'm hoping this feeling sticks around. I like this feeling. It makes me feel calm. Homey. Safe. Comfortable. I like comfortable.

Winter has sprung

Didn't think it would take until February to finally say that! But we are experiencing the coldest, snowiest weather we have had all winter. The highs this weekened have hovered any where from 5 to 15 degrees BELOW zero. The sun is shining making sunglasses a necessity with everything still covered in white from the first persistant snow fall of the year too. We had lots of wet heavy one or two days of snow earlier but it never stuck around long. The ground has now been white for a good two weeks. I like it.

Of course, I pick the coldest weekend of the year to have a full slate of activities. My car made a serious protest yesterday morning to get to my 9:30 meeting. Even the hot chocolate at the hockey game couldn't keep me warm as I covered the last regular season game for the team I was assigned through Sports Med. I didn't take all my layers off rom that until 9 pm last night. I just couldn't get warm. So I kept the layers on and moved up to my third floor where it's the warmest to finish up all the preparation for this afternoon's children's Valentine's Day Stampin' Up workshop.

The floors are swept, the dining room full of Stampin' supplies, snacks laid out, a candle lit and food bought for our Super Bowl party, which I have to get to as soon as I'm done here at home. Since my Broncos were out of it all, I forgot Super Bowl Sunday when I planned my workshop. oh well...the boy has the handle on touching up his house and everyone is to bring their own snacks and we will order pizza. I should just have to show up.

Good thing the boss is going to be gone this week, I should have some time to relax and play catch up on everything else. Like finding the top of my desk and finishing a book or two :)

Have a great week!

Moose behind

This particular moose is behind this week. I'm paying the price for a three day relaxing weekend and it is now just seems like a memory. Oh well! It's Friday tomorrow and I have a weekend of meetings, hockey games, errands, workshops, and parties to participate in. The high for Saturday's temp is to be around 3 below air temp with wind chills much lower than that. Going to be fun picking up my new dishwasher and bringing it home.

These are the only two pictures we took this weekend. The last morning of our escape involved a trip to the outlet shopping center near our resort. As we were getting ready to make the drive home we spotted an odd vehicle in the parking lot. Of course we had to check it out...and this is what we found. The Moosejaw Pizza and Brewing Companies delivery truck.

Isn't he adorable?